Sunday, August 12, 2007 @ 9:01 PM
Sometimes when I read about other people lives, especially those who are currently studying overseas, I would feel very envious.
I could still remember when I was in primary 4, one of my mum's friend asked me whether do I want to migrate to Australia as I had just came back from a trip over there. I replied yes straight away, and she asked me will I miss anything here in Singapore if I really do migrate one day. After thinking through, I told her firmly that I wouldnt miss anything here in Singapore.
Right now, I still do want to go overseas to stay there for some time, to experience another culture, another life.
Yan Yi introduced me to this blog http://sukuen.livejournal.com The lady in the blog seems to have it all going in her life. Studying in London (thats where I want to go) etc. hmm.
Envy..That's one of the 7 deadly sins.
I cant help feeling this way. It is not that I am lacking in anything in life, its just that I do feel suffocated living in Singapore.
I know how it is to adjust to a new place all the time. From secondary school up till now, I do not have friends from my class attending the same school as I do. Everytime I go somewhere, I always end up alone. Its like re-building my life all over again. I do like it most of the time because this means that I meet more people of diverse interest or mindset that I am used to. But for 1% of the time, I do get abit lonely.
hmm.. I dont really know what I am going on about. Im just typing whatever that comes to my mind. It's like one of those moments where you know that you have alot to say and get it out of your system, but somehow the words just get stuck.
I can get very unrealistic. Idealising too much. Thinking how easy life it can be. Even though I know it is not. There are just so many things to deal with and worry about.
Oh, I love peppermint tea.
All time favourite of mine.